Sunday, April 13, 2008
I was thinking this morning about behavior--mine, specifically. I have made a LOT of changes in the last 3 years. My nutrition is better, I work out just about everyday, and I am drinking my water. It has been a hard long road to get where I am today.
Nineteen years ago, I was pregnant with my last child David--the Marine! He was born January '89. 1988 was a horrible and very trying year for me. I did not expect to get pregnant. My husband and I had separated earlier in the year, and over a reconciliation weekend, I got PG. I was elated! I loved the whole pregnancy thing! I had 3 other kids at the time--Leighsa, RJ, and Jacob. They ranged in age from 12-5. They were excited about having a baby brother/sister.
As the year wore on, I was getting more and more excited. We had just moved into a new home, so I was busy nesting. That was in August '88. Pretty soon Christmas rolled around...Christmas Eve I received a bomb from my husband--"I'm leaving you, and she'll be here to pick me up in a minute". WHOA!!! Holy crap! So he left me and the kids. I had to explain to them why Daddy wasn't there on Christmas morning. He didn't show up again until 3 days after Christmas. This started me on a downward spiral. By the time David was born, I was 235 lbs. with gestational diabetes. It pretty much sucked.
After David was born, I lost a few lbs., but not anywhere near enough! A few months later, our house was foreclosed upon--My husband quit paying any of our bills, and I had no job, but 4 beautiful kids. I found a job, and a new place to live. I worked hard, and at that time life had no joy.
I took the kids and I moved up north to the Prescott area, where I am today. I found a great job, and things looked better. I had nothing but struggles to lose weight. It just wasn't coming off. I was down to 198 by that time.
I have been up and down for the last 18 years. The baby weight is still with me. So....I decided that this year it was coming OFF!!! My problem I have decided, is that I have not been able to stick with anything long enough to get REAL results. I found the Metabolic Surge program, and so far I'm doing well with it. I have lost about 4% BF and a few inches. I feel stronger, my hip and knee joints don't hurt either. I made a deal with myself that I would finish this Level One program--to the very END!! So far so good. I have only about 9 days left.
I actually have a plan--it's all laid out in my planner. I know what I am doing everyday. I know what I'm eating every day. This has made a huge difference to me. Nothing is left to chance. I have not been perfect during this program. I missed one workout, I messed up another one--by not doing all the exercises--I had 3 days of not eating right. BUT...I am on a roll. I am not letting that get to me. I have learned to pick up where I left off and not let a little mishap throw me off my whole plan.
I'm getting older and it's getting harder and harder to get this fat off. My mom used to tell me when I was in my 30's, "Get it off now, because when you get my age, it won't happen". Well, Mom....this is for you--It WILL happen, because I'm gonna MAKE it happen! I refuse to be fat AND fifty!
1. I drink 8 glasses of water every day
2. I am the perfect weight for me
3. I make positive healthy choices for me